Very first of all, Gwen at Run Gwen, Run! Write Gwen, Write! has honored me with this stunning Kreativ Blogger Award. Gwen is awesome and talented and you should all go follow her if you aren’t already ^_^

I finished my outline yesterday. It’s staring back at me from Scrivener, mocking me and taunting me with it’s index-card-for-each-chapter view. Now I’m to that daunting point where I actually have to put real words down. Like, story words.

I know exactly how the story starts. I’ve even already written chapter 1 from a teddy bear’s perspective (yeah, you heard me right). But since the bear isn’t a POV character in the actual novel (go figure), I have to rewrite it the right way. Should be easy, right?

I think I keep saying this, or versions of it, but I’m a little scared of this story. It’s got some a broader theme than I’ve dealt with in the past. Which sounds odd since one of my last stories involved assassinating gods and the other dealt with corporate oppression…

But this has the potential to take it all to a new level. I’ve noticed this theme in all my stories. Regardless of plot or genre, they’re all a variation on the concept of the little guy/gal sticking it to ‘the man’. But for some reason this one feels more epic.

I don’t know if it’s because I’m just not comfortable with the world yet (though I don’t think that’s it), or if it’s because part of me wants to actually get the point across this time.

And I’m terrified I won’t be able to. It’s not a feeling of “I’m not a good writer”, it’s more “I’m not good enough to tell this story the way it deserves to be told.”

I’m pretty confident I could make it all kinds of fluffy and superficial if I wanted. But I want it to be more than that. Maybe I’m pushing for the wrong goals. There’s nothing wrong with a light story…it’s just not what this is. So…do I move on or do I suck it up and give it a shot anyway?

How do you deal with an idea that feels to epic for you to tackle?