I’m not a tough, strong individual. I don’t take criticism in stride, integrate it into my every day life, and grow and become better and never look back.

That doesn’t mean I don’t listen and learn. I do. I hear all criticism, I spend hours and days agonizing it, and I eventually make what I think are valid points a part of my life and my work. Unfortunately I also sometimes make invalid points a part of my life and work, but that’s a different story. (As in, be careful you don’t destroy your voice by letting critiques rewrite your story for you).

Because I’m this whiny, fragile creature, I’m careful about who I let read my work. I’m very, very picky. Which might lead people to think I only hand it over if I know I’m going to get praise in return.

That is so not the case. A bit of backstory. I got a critique once of a short story of mine. The story was about 2,000 words. The critique must have been at least 8,000. And there were no line-by-line notes. It told me for page after page about all the literary rules I had broken. How I had switched between third person close and third person omniscient too often. How I had used the word cacophany wrong. How my visuals were overdone. Actually, that’s a pretty good summary of what it said. But it took 8,000 words to tell me.

What it never said was whether or not the reader enjoyed the story. What their personal opinion of the tale itself was. On a technical level it picked the entire thing apart. But I still didn’t know if they felt there was anything salvagable underneath.

I see that too much in critique. I see lists of things that need to be fixed. They go on and on and on. It can be so discouraging. It’s needed, but it’s still disheartening.

The people I let read my work more than once still give me lists of things that need work. They can go on and on too. I have rambling conversations with my readers and CP’s about what needs to be corrected and why and how.

But they also tell me if the story itself is salvagable. They start with things like “You’ve got a great foundation here.” Or they end with things like “This is what worked for me and what you did well.”

But I’ll tell you what’s even more frustrating. The people who point things out in the story and don’t say if they feel it’s good or bad. “Your main character mouths off a lot.”

Yeah, she does. Do you like that? Do you hate that? Do you wish she would crawl into a hole and die? What kind of emotion did it evoke?

“Your story is a new twist on ‘country girl in the big city’, but with angels.” Yeah. It is. Are you cool with that? Does that make you want to huck the book across the room?

How does it make you feel?

Art is subjective. I think we all know that. But to me, it should also evoke emotion. A creative work of fiction shouldn’t be relegated to a clinical list of technical traits.

I want to know what you liked and didn’t like and why, and I want to know if I’m spinning my wheels going back for another revision or if you personally feel like there’s potential in there.

What do you want to know about your work?

PS: The feedback that inspired this rant happened almost four years ago. It was for the earliest version of ‘Apathy’s Hero’, so whether it had a positive or negative impact on me is still unknown. A conversation with a coworker reminded me of it this morning.